time does fly and i'm actually already one and a half weeks in China already. but at the same time, it seems so long before i get to see everyone again. i miss all of you.

training is a little easier today as my mentors are very busy today. but i still have so many things to figure out!! i muat jia you!!

i sent a super long email to my dear AI colleagues today. haha.. dunno why i just had this feeling of emailing each and everyone of them that i care about =)

had a longer chat with dear on skype today which is really rare as our time difference is just too great. i guess it was a good chat as i let him understand more about my feelings and also we talked about 'us' and what the future might hold for both of us as we will be apart for a long period. though things are uncertain now but i feel that time will tell whether we are strong enough with regards to holding on to our relationship. i feel that it's good to let things flow and see how it goes for now. no point thinking too much about it as there's nothing much we can do about it now. i guess right now we are just really busy with our own different paths.

i can't seem to post up many photos at a time so i'll try my best to share some photos here and there. actually i never really take a lot of photos also coz like i'm usually alone so i don't take of myself much. i just take my surroundings. but i am enjoying my stay here and learning a lot of new things along the way. i believe i made the right choice by taking up this training program =)

i miss looking at the stars and lying on the beach.. hopefully i can do that when i'm back in singapore for golden week. maybe during the chalet i'm going to have with my colleagues.. =) there's no beaches here in suzhou and star gazing is not possible due to the light pollution here with all the city lights from where i stay.

all right back to wk again for me. i really need to figure out this SAP system. maybe i'll blog tonight again when i can =)

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thanks to yi xiang, i found a way to finally be able to blog again =) yay! but i'm not sure whether i can post pictures a not. so do let me know whether u all can see this image that i post cause i'm like trying it out.

i came across this image online and i thought it's really pretty <3 somehow, it makes me think more abt the situation that i am in right now. *sighz...

today's training is not too bad i guess. i'm going to have a light lunch today cause i heard too many scary stories of the canteen. so maybe i'll just eat very very little today. anyway it's good as i want to lose more weight so that i can look more slim.. haha.. i have always been fleshy, meaty and whatever you all have described me before. you pple know who u are!!

but it's really going to be a challenge to lose weight here as the food here is really more salty and oily. honestly my appetite here is also average only. maybe i need a bit more time to settle down into my new environment.

ok i shall blog till here for now. i will continue to update on my progress here and let all of u pple who care abt me know that i'm doing fine and surviving! heez..

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thank you for always being there for me =) i think without you talking to me every night, i will really not know what to do right now.

thank you for being there when i'm so helpless, empty and when i needed someone to listen and understand.

you are really impt and i hope our friendship will really grow as time passes. you know who you are =)

on a side note, i will try to upload some photos here on my blog soon. right now, back to my training...

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why am i still so disappointed even though i already told myself countless times not to hope or expect anything. i know u are busy with more impt things to do but it really hurts.

how long does it take to type an sms? how long does it take just to make a short phone call? or even just leave an offline msg on windows live?

i'm really tired. i dunno what to do but all i can do is try my best to understand everything. and patiently wait for something to happen. 

i know this song is like really old but it is so tempting to me right now.

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

but i think knowing me, i'm never going to stop caring... even if we are not meant to be...

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oh my goodness!! time really flies and it's like exactly one more week and i'll be flying off to China for my training. having really mixed feelings about it still. on one hand, i'm so excited to have this opportunity to train, learn and grow overseas which will be a great experience for me and i know this will be good for my future career too. but of course, i will definitely miss all the pple i love and care abt back here in Singapore. i will be back really soon to see all of them. 1 year can really fly by faster than you know it.

i had a great dinner with my university friends tonight. think it has been like at least half a year or more that we last met up. everyone is looking good =) having great careers ahead of them and of course some of them slowly settling down. we were even talking about marriage and also balloting of HDB houses today. heez.. but i know that will be a long way more for me. i guess i have to wait for another at least 4 more years to reach there.

i'm so excited abt Kat's wedding... i really need to start hunting for the Jie Mei outfit which is going to be a hot pink dress as requested by her...

looking forward to tml's Kbox with all my colleagues. i know we are going to definitely enjoy ourselves. but i'm definitely not going to sing or else everyone will go deaf cause i am like totally tone deaf =P i'll just be hanging out and chilling as they sing =)

i'm thinking of changing this blogskin again... i think this one is a little too happy... i wanna get a nice and more emo one just like my last few blogskins. i think that screams of me more, any suggestions?

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wow! i think it must have been like half a year already since i last blogged. i really kind of miss this feeling. Bestie is totally right. it's great to pen down your feelings once in a while. like a diary =)

i guess this half a year, my life has definitely experienced a lot of major changes. i started a new chapter of my life... entering the workforce. although i love wking, i can't deny the fact that i do miss the freedom i used to have when i was studying. less responsibilities and all =)

will be heading to China for my one year training on the 30th of this month. feeling really excited abt it. i know that it will be a great experience for me. i definitely will be missing everyone back here.. from my family, to my frenz and to my dearest simin bestie and ian <3 but i know that from this experience i will grow into a stronger person.

i have a packed week with loads of activities before my take off, pple to meet, things to pack etc:

Friday(today) - going out with Weiting and Wei Yan
Saturday - packing in the day and stayover mahjong session with Yi Xiang James and Bestie at my place
Sunday - day with bestie and night celebrating my dad's bdae
Monday - university frenz gathering at night
Tuesday - outing with my colleagues, Kbox Session
Wednesday - meeting Dear and packing for his Penn trip
Thursday - dinner with Jon
Friday - celebrating an early bdae with Simin Bestie Dear
Saturday & Sunday - family time, final packing & spending time with Dearest
Monday - Flying to China

haha... i realize my schedule is like really packed. but at least i'm spending all my time with pple that i love and care about =) definitely looking forward to that.

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爱昧 - Japanese - 杨丞琳

The song is so nice :D even in Japanese!!

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